Lyrics from “Luz Negra” (Black light) by Nelson Cavaquinho and Amâncio Cardoso
Album: Soundtrack of film A Falecida (1964); LP Elizeth sobe o morro (1965, Elizeth Cardoso); Depoimento do Poeta (1970, Nelson Cavaquinho)
—
Always alone
I live looking for someone
Who suffers like I suffer
And I just can’t find anyone
Always alone
And life goes on like that
I don’t have anyone who takes pity on me
I’m nearing the end
The black light of a cruel destiny
Illuminates a colorless theater
Where I’m playing the role
Of a clown of love
Always alone
And life goes on like that
I don’t have anyone who takes pity on me
And I’m nearing the end, and I’m nearing the end…
— Interpretation–
This is a classic samba de morro – a samba from Rio de Janeiro’s poorer hillside neighborhoods – from one of Brazil’s most iconic sambistas, Nelson Cavaquinho. Cavaquinho wrote the song upon the request of filmmaker Leon Hirszman, a fellow denizen of Cartola’s restaurant Zicartola, for Hirszman’s film “A falecida” (“The dead woman”) based on Nelson Rodrigues‘ play by the same name. The samba was arranged for the film by renowned Brazilian composer Radamés Gnattali.
Nelson Cavaquinho was born October 29, 1911, in Rio de Janeiro. He came from a family of modest means, so he left school as boy to work in a factory. There, his coworkers organized samba gatherings, where he earned his nickname because of his early knack for playing cavaquinho and his peculiar style of plucking with just two fingers. Eventually, Nelson Cavaquinho cast aside his namesake instrument in favor of the guitar.
In 1931, Nelson met and married Alice Ferreira Neves (after her father allegedly dragged him to the courthouse); the couple had four children before separating. Alice’s father recommended Nelson Cavaquinho for the Military Police Cavalry, and Cavaquinho began patrolling the Mangueira neighborhood atop his horse, Vovô (Grandpa). In Mangueira, he met and developed friendships with Zé da Zilda, Carlos Cachaça, and Cartola. As the story goes, he met Cartola in the square in Mangueira and spent so much time talking with him that Vovô grew tired of waiting and went back to the police station alone. Nelson Cavaquinho was locked up for a few days — a punishment he was rather accustomed to at that point. By 1938, Cavaquinho had separated from his wife; he was a fixture in Rio’s bohemian samba circles, an iconic member of Mangueira samba school and a frequent attraction at Zicartola, the restaurant that Cartola ran with his wife Zica. In 1952, he moved to Mangueira, and a few years later he met Guilherme de Brito, with whom he composed some of Brazil’s most beloved sambas such as “A Flor e o Espinho” (The Flower and the Thorn) and “Folhas Secas” (Dry Leaves).
Nelson Cavaquinho became known for his melancholic sambas. He sang mostly about dark themes — death, poverty and perdition. In spite of his disconsolate tone, he never showed any inclination to abandon his bohemian lifestyle. Eduardo Gundin, a friend and fellow composer, recalls a day when he was on his way to pick up Cavaquinho after a radio interview: Gundin tuned his car radio to the interview, and heard the reporter ask Nelson Cavaquinho about his plans for the future. He responded: “My plans? Gudin is going to come pick me up and then we’re going to drink at Bar do Alemão.”
Nelson Cavaquinho died of emphysema on February 18, 1986.
Post by Victoria Broadus (About)
